[He's not sure how to explain it but then there's a lot more to be confused about anyway, and for a moment he meets her eyes and lets it flicker there, doesn't get why she's worried about him letting her go when he's attempted to say over and over that he really sucks at that. And that doesn't even make sense, the more he thinks about it. Yeah, things changed - he started avoiding her - so if he got better wouldn't he. Not... avoid her.
Goddamn. There's a huff of pure frustration but figuring out how to word all of that is hard, and doing it well might just be impossible. So all he does is send her a fiercely serious look and grab her hand to keep it where it is.]
I won't.
[Won't wonder about it, yeah, but for all he knows he might never get better either and that's something she - should know, and that's not telling her what to do, is it.]
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[He's not sure how to explain it but then there's a lot more to be confused about anyway, and for a moment he meets her eyes and lets it flicker there, doesn't get why she's worried about him letting her go when he's attempted to say over and over that he really sucks at that. And that doesn't even make sense, the more he thinks about it. Yeah, things changed - he started avoiding her - so if he got better wouldn't he. Not... avoid her.
Goddamn. There's a huff of pure frustration but figuring out how to word all of that is hard, and doing it well might just be impossible. So all he does is send her a fiercely serious look and grab her hand to keep it where it is.]
I won't.
[Won't wonder about it, yeah, but for all he knows he might never get better either and that's something she - should know, and that's not telling her what to do, is it.]